Tuesday, June 2, 2009

孩子的沙城


海滩上的沙城,容易造,容易倒,那是一个多么脆弱的存在啊!

人们对彼此的感情,不也如此吗?

人生就像一个海滩,多么的美丽;人们则是海滩上的生物,由海里,随着年纪的增长慢慢移向陆地;而海呢,便是那不饶人的岁月。

海滩上靠海的沙都是潮湿的,这种沙非常好使,筑起沙城简单又快。但是在靠海的部分造沙城,一被来袭的海浪碰上时,变得意外地脆弱, 抵挡不了浪水的侵袭。

年幼时的我们,感情对我们来说只是一样新鲜的玩意,就像一个孩子看见新玩具一样,那感觉是非常开心的。

但是,年幼的我们会对得到的感情愈来愈厌倦,就如一个孩子对玩具渐渐地厌倦,会丢弃那玩具,置之不理。容易开始,更容易结束,这时的感情经不起时间的考验,就像玩具无法永远满足一个孩子,能经过这一关并持续下去的也不过那几个。

较靠近陆地的海滩,那儿的沙较为干燥,因为它只有在涨潮时才会碰到水。这种沙,因为些许的潮湿,要用来筑沙城也不会太难,只要懂得它的技巧,不需花费太多的时间便能完成。这种沙城比较经得起海浪的侵袭,因为它离海较远,海浪到这儿时多半已无多少威胁性。话虽如此,一旦海水涨潮时,有些因为潮水的冲击太大而便变得不堪一击,有些则因为海水的滋润变得更加牢固。

年少的我们,对感情抱有很大的期望,这时的感情不如年幼时那般容易,这时的感情需要一份适当的勇气方能得到。这时的感情多半不是因为时间的过去而感到厌倦,大多都是因为一些不时会发生的争执而弄得那些无耐性的少年分道扬镳 - 感情结束后更变得像陌生人般, 连说句话也难。

这时少年便突然变成感性王, 个个开始在那儿唉声叹气, 说的自己像是天下最倒霉的人。有言道 : "少年不识愁滋味,为赋新词强说愁" 少年们总是为些芝麻绿豆的事情烦恼, 把每件事都硬硬说是不幸的遭遇, 而实际的不幸哪会那么简单地熬过呢? 难道他们没见过那些单单为了活下去, 每天都要与饥饿,病痛搏斗的人们? 现在少年的世界实在太小, 他们的视野不辽阔, 永远被困在自己的幻想, 永远活在睡梦里。

能经得起这考验,坚持彼此间感情的人们, 更是屈指可数。

离海水最远的部分, 那儿的沙非常干燥, 要筑沙城更是困难。若要成功, 必须要用智力, 技巧, 努力。这儿筑起的沙城, 如果成功, 他将会非常牢固, 并且不会被浪水与潮水侵袭, 因为它已离开海水太远了。

年纪较成熟的我们, 不会像年轻时一般, 不会因时间而对感情厌倦, 不会因纠纷而抛弃感情。 因为这时真诚的感情是得来不易的, 我们会珍惜身边的人事物, 因为我们将了解到有很多事情不是说要就要。

踏入社会, 我们会了解, 所有的东西并不是我们年轻时想得那么简单, 外面的世界是个如战场般的世界, 那是个弱肉强食的世界, 弱者淘汰, 强者生存, 这便是世界的定律。我们会了解, 来到社会上, 到处都是想要淘汰你的掠夺者, 真诚的友情, 或许只是虚伪的陷阱。 能躲过无数的陷阱, 方能得到真实的友谊, 真诚的感情, 这一切是多么地不易啊!

正因为得来不易,才懂得如何去珍惜。

真诚的友谊, 是由年少时得来的 ; 真诚的感情, 或许难以找寻, 但有些经得起考验的人们, 成功将年少那真诚的感情, 带到成长后的世界里, 有的则在冥冥中遇见一个真正属于自己的伴侣。

犹如孩子的沙城, 那么的脆弱, 人们对感情抱太大的期望了。与其为不实际的感情伤心,不如专注于如何在这现实世界生存下去。

Friday, May 22, 2009

What do i seek in life?

Lately i m starting to think abt the time passing by. It was January back then n now wow i am in the middle of my form 4 studies, i mean, sumtimes u juz feel tat things happen so fast : for a minute it was there, then it is gone...

Last year, while i was on my way to school, i was thinking : "how long will hav passed in the future when i think back abt now?"

N here i am today, 1 year after tat. Although it's juz one year, looking back at those time i spent, somehow i cant find anything really significant in my life, wat is it tat i seek? Especially when someone like Mr Kumar asks me : "Wat's ur ambition?", this question almost always strikes me speechless, although sometimes i giv an answer, but i always fail to convince myself tat tat is wat i want...

I read books on astronomy, physics, n then i say : "I want to be a astronomer!" When i get back to school n other stuffs start to set in, i start to think : "Wat was tat i wanted to be again?"

Few days later, i read books on comedy n romance, n then i say : "I want to be an author!" n few days later, wow, i am gud at forgetting things!

Throughout these 16 years, i am juz wandering around aimlessly, not knowing my goal, fulfilling my parents' hope. But wat do i really want? i do not know... Perhaps it is best i really workout to find my hope in future...

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Annoying stuffs


Ever met with ppl tat r really annoying? Sure enough, yes

Annoying Situation 1:
After a tiring day at school, you are ready to get home as soon as possible to get some rest, the day is extremely warm and humid, you are sweating profusely. On the way home, you are trying to walk as fast as possible, however, the person in front of u is taking his own sweet time walking slowly on a busy track, u tried to cut in front of him, but he is moving in such a way that whatever u do, u wouldnt hav enough space to go through. Slowly, he takes out a cigarette, lights it and took a puff, all the cigarette fume goes right in your face. You are getting near the road, the traffic light turned green for the pedestrians. However, the guy in front of u is still moving at his speed of snail, making u even annoyed.

Annoying situation 2:
You are in deep water becoz of some problems to deal with in school. Assignments, homeworks, uniforms, bla bla bla. You are sitting in front of your computer, cracking your head to find a solution. Suddenly, your phone rings and it happens to be your superior, giving more pressure instead of solution, annoying u to an extent u may just crush your phone and step on it. Now, ur parent come here and starts lecturing u non-stop about homeworks, results, studies, not using computers and stuffs, annoying u even more.

Solution 1:
Kick tat guy's ass, make him move faster, right before he turns back, get the guy by his collar, drag him on the ground, take is cigarette, stuff it inside his nostrils, see how he likes tat. Kick tat guy out of the way, move on.

Solution 2:
Take your phone, throw it out of the window, smash your computer into pieces, tear off ur books, get into ur room, close the door and dun care the hell about anything. On the next day, meet ur superior, stuff his mouth with ur resignation letter, get the hell out of there. XD

Juz joking, really... I where got so violent 1... XD

Really... last time violent ZY gone liao XD

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

后悔?反省?太迟了......


前几个月,我们五人被选中参加那个什么救伤比赛,为了参加比赛,我们五人练习了大概有3个月...而每次练习总是有人会在那里不停地开玩笑,总是无法认真地做好自己的本分。
我曾经说过,我们练习的时间已经不多了,要他们认真对待这些练习。我说他们没有危机感,不到大难临头之际也不会反省,他们平常不肯认真地去练习,我已经预测他们会在最后一刻找我做垂死的挣扎。
今天,果然被我猜中了,在运动过后其中一个突然问我下个星期可否不去补习,和他们一起练习。我在开始练习的第一天已经表明我不会为了比赛练习不去上课,所以我要他们平常练习时认真一些,以弥补我们缺乏时间的问题。你们平常有时间时练习不肯认真,现在没有时间了,你们就跑过来要我用我的时间来弥补你们的错误?抱歉,我可没那么伟大。你求我?不用可气了,你打我还好,求我就不用了,我不吃这一套。
被我拒绝后,他们竟跑去找团里的前辈,在那儿闹别扭说我不肯和他们练习,然后他们还翻脸说不参加比赛了。搞得那前辈一时慌了,还真的服了他,你管他们放屁,不去不是不去咯,他们还要我去找前辈理论,说我不合作。好哇,好个恶人先告状...这下我可忍无可忍了,你做初一,我做十五!你要在那儿耍赖,我何尝不会呢?前辈告诉我说他们俩不想参加比赛,我便来个接力使力法,我也不去!那俩似乎没料到我会这么说,都呆了.
有些时候你说我不合作,那你有没有想过你之前如何对人呢?
当他人还有心要帮你时,你就应该好好地接受,不要在那儿把别人的努力当成玩笑,
否则,当他人已对你死心时,就算你有多诚恳,多认真也好,不用指望他人会与你合作。

*上面的那个时钟,叫末日钟 (Doomsday clock) 要知道更多,自己上网找...

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Hail!




these 2 days training wit mr woo... like hell la... tired like hell... kena 'shoot' like hell... still, quite gud lor. At least we got a bit improvement, got...
training wit kar soon 1 day = okok lar
training wit kar soon 2 days straight = tired
training wit mr woo 1 day = freaking tired
training wit mr woo 2 days straight = hello hell
training wit mr woo really can die... he is having fun torturing us, summore nid me shout like i'm a loudspeaker, a robot, can shout non-stop 1. walau, my throat everyday like tat during competition no nid do liao luu~~
first day training left my wallet n handphone at school (-_-|||) coz really tired la! tired until i oso blur blur ledi, reach kasturi ledi only perasan, haiz... luckily the greatest fren (lol)
[TAN CHIN TIONG] agreed to teman me go back school to take my handphone~ XD if not i oso dunno if i really wan go up school (again!)... all hail chin tiong! hail! hail! XD
at least i helped him exercise a bit~ ppl complain got '啤酒肚' i knew he got drink beer 1, everyday... Hail chin tiong! hail hail!
today training really really really really really freaking tired la, summore kena 'shoot' kaw kaw by mr woo, well, i guess we did do things rather badly... but giving punishment like makan nasi, i drank like 3-4 cans + 1 bottle of 100plus and oso 3 bottles of water, still very thirsty, summore cramp happens really often (curse me left leg!) i think sumting wrong wit my left leg, mayb go check wit doc... or mayb is juz excessive loss of salt! y? sweating mah! next time training wit mr woo i better bring 1 bag of salt juz in case kena cramp again. today reach kasturi late, at least i dun hav to walk~ mr woo fetched us to kasturi so no nid kena rain. reach kasturi still very tired, feel like sleeping, summore whole body pain... body pain nice de, when massage a bit n feel the compression, dunno y but feel nice oso.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Sacrifice

Last friday, YL suddenly said tat he wanted to go for duty instead of training on saturday. Surprised, i told him tat we weren't supposed to take any duty during training period. He then replied tat he had never heard of such thing, well of course he hadnt heard of it! He never pay any attention to watever others are saying! Together with CL, they struck me speechless with their seemingly righteous arguments about being active in duties and they said they wont go for training. Well, when i told mr woo abt tis, hell, i kena 'shoot' kaw kaw. I was like , wtf?! not i dun wan go, it's them! But hell, he wouldn't listen and held me responsible to get them come for training at all cost.
As i tot, YL n CL wouldn't sacrifice their 'precious' duty hour to train, but they still insists that they ARE WILLING TO SACRIFICE THEIR TIME. ya rite... then y wouldnt u come for training?

Novelist Sinclair Lewis was supposed to deliver an hour-long lecture to a group of college students who planned to be writers. Lewis opened his talk with a question:

"How many of you really intend to be writers?"

All hands went up.

"In that case," said Lewis, "my advice to you is to go home and write."

With that, he left. What is word without action?

Exactly, they said they are willing to sacrifice, but they didnt show tat wat they are talking is true. What i say is tat they weren't willing to sacrifice at all. I know i may not be the right person to say tis, but to achieve something, one must sacrifice another thing in return.
They say,
if u hav the will to win, u have already achieved half of ur success.
Well, i say,
if u hav the will to win but not hav the will to sacrifice in return, u r not even on the right track to success.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Tired...

Form 4 now really... freaking tiring, not in sense of my body, but my freaky brain! School, state comp, tuition, extra classes, meetings. Great! I am trying to kill myself. Seems like i m grumbling? ppl working from 9-5, i studying frm 5-6, I luv my life! -_-
Since Mr woo now expect some result from the comp which means we will nid to train way harder than b4... i kno i wan to win, u know victory is somehow sweeter than defeat isnt it? dun tell me no, i kno u r lying... Well, mr woo now considers me as the leader of the team tis year, which giv me hell lots of trouble (really!) now my confidence to win tis year's state comp is totally gone.
Seems tat it isnt really possible to win wit tis team (not to the extent of "impossible" yet) n tis year i was really planning to train khai loon, whom i hope will win the comp (seeing he has three chances up to form 4)
somehow, juz starting to feel tired, dun feel like moving on...