What do i seek in life?

Lately i m starting to think abt the time passing by. It was January back then n now wow i am in the middle of my form 4 studies, i mean, sumtimes u juz feel tat things happen so fast : for a minute it was there, then it is gone...

Last year, while i was on my way to school, i was thinking : "how long will hav passed in the future when i think back abt now?"

N here i am today, 1 year after tat. Although it's juz one year, looking back at those time i spent, somehow i cant find anything really significant in my life, wat is it tat i seek? Especially when someone like Mr Kumar asks me : "Wat's ur ambition?", this question almost always strikes me speechless, although sometimes i giv an answer, but i always fail to convince myself tat tat is wat i want...

I read books on astronomy, physics, n then i say : "I want to be a astronomer!" When i get back to school n other stuffs start to set in, i start to think : "Wat was tat i wanted to be again?"

Few days later, i read books on comedy n romance, n then i say : "I want to be an author!" n few days later, wow, i am gud at forgetting things!

Throughout these 16 years, i am juz wandering around aimlessly, not knowing my goal, fulfilling my parents' hope. But wat do i really want? i do not know... Perhaps it is best i really workout to find my hope in future...