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They have to act like an adult and play emotional huh?
Face it dude,
you are just a kid,
we all are,
so stop acting like an adult,
stop playing emotional,
you ain't cool

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Like a child's castle,
IT doesn't last forever,
call me skeptical, pessimistic,
mean or stupid,
say that I have not experienced it,
but you can't deny the fact,
that I was right

Will you just keep your mouth shut?

You keep blabbering everyday about how much problems you have,
you keep saying you have done so much,
you keep saying your work is not appreciated,
you keep saying you do not expect anything from your work,
you keep saying you don't care,
but you just can't stop talking about it,
what is this?
your problem came right out of your mouth,
you blame others for not appreciating you,
you blame others and say that the house is full of arguments,
guess what?
only you are arguing with yourself.
You say that the house is not peaceful,
you say that it is full of noise,
wanna know?
you are making the noise,
you love to argue,
you love to blabber,
you said you don't mind, but you can't stop talking about it,
you can't keep your mouth shut, you can't make your tongue stop.
I sit there quietly when you keep shouting,
I am not afraid of you,
I don't want to fight with you,
I respect you, I bear with you,
but you just don't get it, nooo you don't!!
you want to keep shouting,
you think you are so correct,
but hell you are wrong!
you think I won't be angry?
Just because I do not shout at people,
doesn't mean I cannot do so,
I did once and you know it,
it isn't nice and you know it,
I told myself I don't want to get angry,
but you just love getting people furious don't you?
People keep their lips tightly sealed when you are shouting around,
you think we are afraid?
no way
you want to see anger?
you want to see madness?
you want to feel fear?
you are playing with fire and you love it,
watch out
fire isn't nice as it seems to be.
No one wants to argue but you,
everyone wants to have a peace of mind,
but not you,
you just can't stop shouting,
everyone has already got over it but you,
you have problems?
you are stressful?
well keep your mouth shut for 1 week and see what happens,
the problems all because of yourself!

BookFest @ Malaysia 2009

Went to the bookfest yesterday after class at around 4.30-5pm wit my cousin n sis, really nice. XD
Before we could get in, there's a bunch of those medical(?) guy scanned our body temperature n i guess they tag those who r safe (wit a white piece of sticker on your shoulder) kind of like tagging piggy to be slaughtered... Last year i didnt had a chance to do tis so tis year... taada!

Finally, i managed to take a photo with him (tis guy is the artist bhind the hilarious comic 平旦漫画， 王德志） , n the shirt... i recall seeing him wearing tat last year too... anyway, i din buy any of the books coz well, i hav all of them! XD
Next, to introduce a book tats most suitable for CW:
And tis 1 frm a book tat introduces food frm all over Japan, n tis 1 abt tis place... famous for pork~

N for myself, i got these two books here, The Secret n 猫宅一生. Original english ver. hardcover for The Secret n fully illustrated story for 猫宅一生, in total they cost me ~RM80 or so. N my cousin got another book similar to the chinese 1, extremely hilarious! I couldnt stop laughing XD.

WOW

well 2 days ago i went to hq for a little ceremony abt genting donating money to sjam. I reached there at like ~8.30 n i see tat there weren't many ppl there, wat would u expect frm a 'little ceremony anyway? However, i guess u can say i was kind of surprised how many ppl turned up later, thinking back now, i wonder y do they need so many ppl anyway? Not like there's a parade or anything like dat. So later they had a mini guard of honor for the guest, amazingly it started only around 1 hours 30 minutes later, typical huh? Yaada yaada move into the hall. As soon as we entered the hall, i can't help but realize tat there's way too much ppl inside the tiny hall considering tat 1/3 of the space is already taken up by the guests. Wat to do? Well, guess it's juz perfectly normal tat insignificant ppl like us r asked to stand on the side. At first, i din really feel anything but somehow around 10 minutes when Dr. Low is giving his famous long speech, i start to feel kind of strange, i dunno if it's bcoz i din hav my breakfast, or i am suffering frm hypoxia or i am juz claustrophobic. Lets c, it started like tis:

Tis is like my normal sight, except the black and white detail of it kay?

Tis is how it kind of looks like when the strange feeling starts during the first few minutes, blurry sight, distorted image, dizziness, and strange colors start to disturb my eyesight. I tried to rub my eyes a little, u kno, the normal reaction? Thou it doesn't really help...
Another 5 minutes passed and tis happened, i start to sweat a lot and feeling breathless, my eyes hurt and when i looked down to my foot, wow, so it can really split into 3 images? A while later my legs start to feel weak n sorta like falling down or so.
Another 1 or 2 minutes passed and i tried to rest my eyes by closing them n voila! i bcame blind! Great! (OoO) Like above i can only c white dots moving around with a pitch black background eventhough my eyes are wide open. A while later i heard Kean Loong (guess it's spelled correctly) speaking into my ears on my side asking "Hey, are u okay?" I tried to force my eyes to c n tis came into my brain:
A blurry white outline of JiaTing who is standing behind me is barely visible. I knew i will faint if i dun get out of there fast so i simply move my arm up n crutch myself wit kean loong's shoulders and i guess he might not hear it but i asked him to get me out of there. He got me into the office where there's less people, i rushed inside, pulled out a seat, sit down on it, took a deep deep deep breath, 3 seconds after kean loong went out. Hey, what do u kno? I can c again! N i'm not feeling dizzy. Guess it could be partly due to lack of oxygen tat i nearly fainted. 1 or 2 minutes later kean loong brought in another guy who is obviously 90% fainted (I was at least 30% awake during the most critical state!) Later, i went out and returned to the hall. Bla bla bla, finished up n fled away during the ending part to KFC at Jusco XD, had a meeting wit mr woo n went to kasturi.

Took me hell lot of time to finish tis post, restart comp for over 7 times! Curse me lousy computer!!!

What the heck is wrong with you?

Now my pc damn annoying... for like every 10 minutes or so, it will hang n i will hav to switch it off, reboot it, wait for it to hang, switch it off, reboot it, wait for it to hang, switch it off, reboot it............. it really pisses me off n sometimes i juz feel like thrashing the pc n throw it out of the house. Of course i didnt do it, it's bad enuf i cant work on time wit a pc tat keeps on hang, i dun wan to get myself unable to do anything bcoz i threw my pc out.

Since my health is not really gud these days, i am always facing a certain lvl of discomfort, like snivel overflowing (yuck), frequently sneezing n some others. However, it seems tat there are always some inconsiderable jerk tat loves to make ppl feel more annoyed in tis kind of time. In my case, it would be my mother. It is already disturbing and annoying enuf for me to hav tis lvl of discomfort, when i should be having a peaceful time to allow my body to recover, she chose to torment me n annoy me even more with unreasonable nagging and all sorts of craps. If it is juz being caring n nice, i wouldnt mind accepting it. However, she certainly does not kno any sort of limitations and starts scolding abt tis n tat. I mean hey, here u r feeling f up uncomfortable n there she is scolding u as if u killed everyone in the family, yaada yaada yaada, to hell wit you! Tat is y u would say tat certain ppl hav no brain to think tat others r not goin to be happy for all tat u do. Lets c wat u will feel if i hav u hav a taste of ur medicine, scolding u like piece of sXXt. Do u think tat only u will feel angry? Juz bcoz i do not show it, it doesnt mean tat u can do watever u like to me u kno!? You care you care, of course you do, but in a wrong way darn it! You wan to care? Great! Show me some compassion n understanding rather than getting on my nerves! If you cant do tat, juz get the hell out of my life n shut up! Sometimes, i feel tat one day i might get so angry tat i will end up bcoming like those guys tat dump their parents in old folks home. I am not a person tat lets emotion take control easily, but if i really lose it, there u hav it, u deserves it, congratz. All the while i stay quiet, doin my own work. I try my best to ignore the anger by ignoring u, but god u r annoying, it is as if u r really trying my limit, u wan a piece of tis!? Nah! Once, i got so darn angry tat i was freakingly shouting back at her, n for a month, no annoyance is experienced. I dun wan to make myself to do tat, i kno it doesnt help, but some of the time u r juz trying my patience, 老虎不发威你当病猫! I am trying my best to be patient, i try my best not to result in violence, i know it doesnt help n i dun wan to do tis, but someday i may juz get so fking angry tat i can guarantee physical violence. She's always saying : "If I am being quiet, it doesnt mean tat you are right." Well, gud tat you know it urself, when i stayed quiet, she often gets kind of bored n starts saying things like : "i will not care abt ur health anymore, i will c how u help urself!" or "if u wan to make urself like tat, then tat's fine wit me" Well, if it is so, then y wont u juz shut up ur mouth? U like to talk lots n lots of crap but all u can talk abt is those few things we had done wrong, revolving around the same thing. Hell yeah, our fault is always a sin tat destroys the world. One day I forgot to turn off the tap n the water overflowed for around 30 minutes, wow, I guess i must hav snatched away all of the ppl's water from the desert, considering the fact tat i am given a lecture of lifetime. On the other hand, there was one day when she forgot to turn off the tao b u was iut at school. She left the tap open and the water overflowed for about 4 hours, n wat can i say, she is gud at these things, nth happened. So i guess it's alright for her to leave the water overflowing for 4 hours but it is a deadly sin for us to leave the water flowing for 30 minutes. Wow, wat a great way of educating young souls eh? So lets c, it is alright even if i killed sum1 n my children cannot hav anything to say abt it, but if my children injured sum1, i shuld get him to get a death sentence. Now i get it! 只许州官放火，不许百姓点灯 i say.

What a day!

Today's happenings are really interesting indeed, lets c... we shall start from the Bio classes.

It so happened that our bio teacher Pn.Saidah is finally replaced by another teacher, a probationary teacher, Ms Tiun. This new teacher's appearance and CL's appearance have a striking resemblance, we ended up claiming that she is CL's "long lost sister" XD however, our hopes to have a teacher that is able to surpass Saidah's pointless teaching soon became shattered. This new teacher is darn it boring... i guess i can't blame her for that, she is new anyway...

Lets c... next we have the "Garbage Enzyme" starring Chang Chiew Weng, Tan Chin Tiong and Teh Yong Lin. YL and CT actually made CW do his part to contribute to their "堕由他 : 一口油" project, XD k, it's actually Toyota Eco Youth, (still thinks the first one sounds better). His job is : to pour the garbage enzyme into plastic bottles. Sounds easy? Of course! tat is, until he opened up the bucket holding the enzyme. It's really the essence of nastiness, he opened up the cover and a unbearable filthy smell gushed out of the bucket. The smell is like being dumped into a huge garbage container, containing garbage left for few thousand years to rot, the smell is of pure nastiness, i bet it is fatal to even smell it from a distance. Even though everyone think that it is the worst thing ever, it seems tat there're things tat are worse, CT told me tat tis enzyme is actually the one tat "smells gud", there're a few enzymes tat smells worse and CT+YL had to take care of tat. Feeling pity for CW, i gave him a pair of gloves n oso mask, juz in case he gets may get contaminated by the "NOXIOUS ENZYME FUME". Luckily, CW didn't take too long to finish it up n we had YL+CL back into the FAR for our meeting.

After the meeting, i was hanging out wit CL in FAR, i actually got an embarassing recording of him n got a confession out of his mouth~ XD tis time i have all the elements of victory in my hands, i am sure there's no way CL can get away from this~ XD. After tat, we got out n went to the toilet, i took a picture of tis outside the staff room:

I guess our staff room was pretty bouncy before? Perhaps they are trying to pump some air into the staff room to make it bouncy again.

I changed my blog name n a few parts in it, it isn't really tat coded XD, a clue : Alternate Inscription. Try and find out wat does the numbers mean!

Down...

I made a grave mistake today... I forgot about the deadline to return the tins and money for the flag day!!! Damn it! I totally forgot about it until Mr Wang called up and asked me about the tins. God I was given the shock of my life! Luckily enough YL happens to be at school and I actually convinced him to help me out.

My action was indeed a grave mistake... I got YL scolded by Mr $, Mr Mic. When he called me up and told me tat, i was like O_O koli! I mean, I dun mind if i get scolded, but i got YL scolded for me... Damn, the guilt.. is unbearable! I hate getting ppl into trouble bcoz of me, bcoz it made me feel really guilty u c... especially when the person calls u and complaints to u...

Laziness kills... trust me...

So recently I changed my class from 4H to 4J, and now after the results are out, it seems that i've made a correct decision indeed~ Not to say that my grades got a lot better, but at least it got back to my previous standard.

Lately, i see that lots of my frenz are getting all worked up with their studies, not that i do not study, but it seems that somehow i am too lazy to finish my homework, ha~ Now i feel so ehh... inferior? compared to my frens like chin tiong n kah thiam. Especially kah thiam. Tis guy wasn't tis gud last time, i mean during form 3. I can c tat tis guy is really hardworking n now he is right at my back.

One problem with me is tat i can never get myself to be hardworking, perhaps sometime later i may lose to any of my frenz seeing tat i am tis lazy (b ' .')b . I will try to work harder next time...

I am actually quite impresses by kah thiam as well, tis guy is actually a gymnast or watever u call it. He actually got into SUKMA n got a silver medal there. God his schedule is tight! All his activities are packed so tightly i dunno how he still manage to study~ Mayb it is true tat hardworking people are busy people eh?

Now teacher nid us to pass up our homework jor, since i was too lazy to finish any of them, i am facing hell lots of trouble to get all my works done... laziness does kill, but wat can i do about it? LZY is LaZY.... haha~.

Now i put back the cbox up, perhaps people like JiaTing will be grown up enough to stop spamming in it!

Thought of the day - getting off topic~

Time flies... especially when u r busy, preparing for exam, playing, or even sleeping.
I always hear people saying how time passes so fast.. n to an extent, i do agree on tat. I may have said tis b4, i still remember when one day on the way to school, i started to think :
"How long would have passed in the future when i think back what is happening now?"
The answer for me now is 2 years + few months.
It does give a rather nostalgic feeling, especially when you are reminded of how fast the time is going about, it is like someone rushing you saying :
"Hey, time is running out, whatever you want, do it quick!"
Perhaps it is juz me, but i am still getting the feeling tat i havnt achieved anything in my life. I feel tat all i did was juz as playing a supporting role in another person's life. I know i want to achieve something, but i certainly isn't goin to achieve anything juz by thinking about it. Life is not like a book someone is writing, you may decide what u r going to do next, but u certainly cant guarantee tat wat will emerge in your life as a result of wat u've done is satisfactory to u.
It's juz like i wanted to bring team SJI to the state comp and bring the glory back. Well i did bring the team to the competition, but i did not bring back anything, the outcome isnt something you can decide juz like tat. You may put in a lot of effort juz to do something, but tat doesnt mean tat you are certain to achieve what u wan, it's juz like putting targets on a shooting field, putting more targets will give you a higher probability to hit a target, but the fact is there tat you may nvr hit one by chance.

Let's get over wit tat and continue on with the topic i discussed wit CT today~
It's something regarding time travel, childish? impossible? who cares.
You see, people had been saying abt time travel and changing of history, i hope tat a method for time travel will be discovered but i feel tat alterations to the history will be harder to achieve though...
Here's what i think:
Lets say that on 1st January 2009, you injured your leg bcoz u got ran over by a car.
On 1st February 2009, you decided to travel in time to the past, to prevent yourself from getting run over by the car and returned to the moment after u travelled back in time.
Now think, if you succeeded in preventing the accident from happening, tat means, the injury did not happen, which means tat between the period of 1st January 2009 and 1st February 2009, you wouldn't have got a reason to travel back in time.
When the history is altered and your leg wasn't injured, tat means, you do not have to return to the past.
However, if between tat period of time, you did not actually return back in time, tat means the history will not be altered, which means tat the accident will actually happen.
Sounds complicated?

Tat made CT give up thinking of wat i said, and i was actually having a hard time trying to explain to him so i doubt if it is easy to understand using writings.

There's another thing tat i heard from Willey which is the Many-worlds interpretation
This is not exactly wat the thing suggests but i guess i will juz put wat i can understand:
Like the case juz now, u injured your leg, but tis time with a little details added.
A - You injured your legs on 1st january 2009
B- 8.00am 1st february you travelled back in time to 1st january (A)and prevented the accident from happening
C- You returned in time to 8.01am 1st february 2009
From wat i understand, if u alter the history which is changing (A), the condition in (C) will experience some changes.
However, in this case, the change u made will result in difference in the current time.
If you did (B) after (A), the changes will happen, which results in (C), however, since u changed (A) during (B), it means tat (C) will not be parallel with (A) in time.
It's something like, when u change the history of your injury, you are actually chaning the course of the time u r currently at, which means something like tis

--> [No alteration is done]--> (C)Your leg is still injured - (O)
O -->(A)-[leg got injured] '
'--> (B)-[ (A) is avoided] -->(C) Your leg did not get injured - (2)

tis way, it means tat in the dimension O, which is the original dimension, your leg got injured, when you did not do any alteration to the timeline, you will be kept in the same dimension following the timeline. However, if alteration (B) is done, wat will happen is tat, since condition (A) is avoided, then tat means you cannot be following timeline of dimension (O) since ur leg is not injured. So, according to the theory, when alteration is done, you will actually move to another dimension which the injury did not happen which is (2)

Looks easy but this is but a tiny part of the whole theory, took some time to really understand this little part though. You think you can understand the whole theory?
Go ahead : [ http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Many-worlds_interpretation ]

CLDS 2009!

Tis holiday, i went for the 11th CLDS at MBS. A wonderful experience indeed :>
This year's CLDS was held for 3 days 2 nights, 1 day shorter than last year's
This year's camp is to say, different from last year's as this year they wanted us to improve they say. As of tat, the camp tis year is quite strict compared to last year's "Fun Camp".
Tis year, our instructor for drill is mr Chang Chee Kok, a very strict officer with a big voice, literally. Whatever he has to say during the drill sessions, he will be shouting to tell us whatever he wants to say.

For tis year, mr woo has gave me a promotion to a cdt corporal (which i really doubt i will really be promoted after the camp). The promotion actually gave me lots of trouble during the first day, seeing tat people expected a 'corporal' to be gud n keep on shooting. After tat, i bcame the leader of squad 5 all of a sudden. Perhaps i am not an outgoing person, i feel tat my group isnt really talking much to each other, especially when i dun start talking... Luckily got Lee kk, not **** but Lee Kah Kian frm Cochrane, tis guy quite active la n he starts the talking. I see he is really having a hard time getting everyone to talk, u c... i always find it hard to get the conversation going with someone i juz get to know.

During the drill session, again i was threw out to be the leader, Mr Chee Kok separated the groups n it so happens tat i m in squad delta, the leaders were asked to get the members' rank n how many were there, i still managed to do a little bit, however he start asking, how many boys? What division? How many member from tat division? What's the name? O-O I was really troubled then, curses, y did he put corporal........

During the first night, after the performances was the 'Group Review'. k la, i actually told my teammate regarding the happenings of tat day n i actually felt a bit bad, seeing tat coz of my negligence my members had to get embarassed, lol i oso sacrificed n bcame a guy titanic actor. Mayb i am being a bit overreacting but i am kind of worried tat they might not get all there's in this CLDS.

Second day was the day with the longest footdrill session, around 3hours+. However, i managed to survive tat day coz i wasnt the leader ledi~ dunno wat others think but i think i really forced out myself to talk loud jor... i cant speak very loudly ledi coz got sorethroat. Mayb din teach well coz on the third day so many ppl still say dunno (b' .')b . Mr Chee Kok was really pushy tat day, i was briefing the members regarding the drill commands n he keep on ask the members question, when i tell him i still teaching, kena shoot.... i cant help it lar.... i dun hav much experience teaching ppl de lor. Luckily he is being more reasonable tat day, at least i din get scolded answering his questions. The other corporals ar... really bad lar... only me answering sir question, except for 1 of them who went for the national comp thingy, guess i cant blame her.

Apart frm tat, tat night we had another teambuilding game from mr woo chong you 无中有 XD. The games were really testing our minds, lots of teams, including ours argued over a few parts of the games n none managed to finish all 8 stations there's over there n got ourselves scolded by 无中有. Dunno if he actually scolding or wat, but he does sounds like he is scolding us~ Somehow we got back to another reviewing session where we have to compliment our members, guess i found out a way to compliment everyone~ n even got compliments from my members~ dunno if they actually juz trying to fulfill the requirements or it's really from the bottom of their heart, i guess anything is fine with me~

The last day of CLDS, i couldnt sleep well the night b4 tat as aaron is snoring non-stop bside me tat night. Tat day of the closing ceremony was really hard to go thru, i was really sleepy tat day coz the room is cool coz of the aircond + the dim lighting, i nearly fell asleep but luckily i managed to keep myself up n managed to get talking to ease some of those sleepiness. b4 we get home, we took a group picture which is the one above.

孩子的沙城

海滩上的沙城，容易造，容易倒，那是一个多么脆弱的存在啊！

人们对彼此的感情，不也如此吗？

人生就像一个海滩，多么的美丽；人们则是海滩上的生物，由海里，随着年纪的增长慢慢移向陆地；而海呢，便是那不饶人的岁月。

海滩上靠海的沙都是潮湿的，这种沙非常好使，筑起沙城简单又快。但是在靠海的部分造沙城，一被来袭的海浪碰上时，变得意外地脆弱, 抵挡不了浪水的侵袭。

年幼时的我们，感情对我们来说只是一样新鲜的玩意，就像一个孩子看见新玩具一样，那感觉是非常开心的。

但是，年幼的我们会对得到的感情愈来愈厌倦，就如一个孩子对玩具渐渐地厌倦，会丢弃那玩具，置之不理。容易开始，更容易结束，这时的感情经不起时间的考验，就像玩具无法永远满足一个孩子，能经过这一关并持续下去的也不过那几个。

较靠近陆地的海滩，那儿的沙较为干燥，因为它只有在涨潮时才会碰到水。这种沙，因为些许的潮湿，要用来筑沙城也不会太难，只要懂得它的技巧，不需花费太多的时间便能完成。这种沙城比较经得起海浪的侵袭，因为它离海较远，海浪到这儿时多半已无多少威胁性。话虽如此，一旦海水涨潮时，有些因为潮水的冲击太大而便变得不堪一击，有些则因为海水的滋润变得更加牢固。

年少的我们，对感情抱有很大的期望，这时的感情不如年幼时那般容易,这时的感情需要一份适当的勇气方能得到。这时的感情多半不是因为时间的过去而感到厌倦,大多都是因为一些不时会发生的争执而弄得那些无耐性的少年分道扬镳 - 感情结束后更变得像陌生人般, 连说句话也难。

这时少年便突然变成感性王, 个个开始在那儿唉声叹气, 说的自己像是天下最倒霉的人。有言道 : "少年不识愁滋味,为赋新词强说愁" 少年们总是为些芝麻绿豆的事情烦恼, 把每件事都硬硬说是不幸的遭遇, 而实际的不幸哪会那么简单地熬过呢? 难道他们没见过那些单单为了活下去, 每天都要与饥饿,病痛搏斗的人们? 现在少年的世界实在太小, 他们的视野不辽阔, 永远被困在自己的幻想, 永远活在睡梦里。

能经得起这考验,坚持彼此间感情的人们, 更是屈指可数。

离海水最远的部分, 那儿的沙非常干燥, 要筑沙城更是困难。若要成功, 必须要用智力, 技巧, 努力。这儿筑起的沙城, 如果成功, 他将会非常牢固, 并且不会被浪水与潮水侵袭, 因为它已离开海水太远了。

年纪较成熟的我们, 不会像年轻时一般, 不会因时间而对感情厌倦, 不会因纠纷而抛弃感情。 因为这时真诚的感情是得来不易的, 我们会珍惜身边的人事物, 因为我们将了解到有很多事情不是说要就要。

踏入社会, 我们会了解, 所有的东西并不是我们年轻时想得那么简单, 外面的世界是个如战场般的世界, 那是个弱肉强食的世界, 弱者淘汰, 强者生存, 这便是世界的定律。我们会了解, 来到社会上, 到处都是想要淘汰你的掠夺者, 真诚的友情, 或许只是虚伪的陷阱。 能躲过无数的陷阱, 方能得到真实的友谊, 真诚的感情, 这一切是多么地不易啊!

正因为得来不易,才懂得如何去珍惜。

真诚的友谊, 是由年少时得来的 ; 真诚的感情, 或许难以找寻, 但有些经得起考验的人们, 成功将年少那真诚的感情, 带到成长后的世界里, 有的则在冥冥中遇见一个真正属于自己的伴侣。

犹如孩子的沙城, 那么的脆弱, 人们对感情抱太大的期望了。与其为不实际的感情伤心,不如专注于如何在这现实世界生存下去。

What do i seek in life?

Lately i m starting to think abt the time passing by. It was January back then n now wow i am in the middle of my form 4 studies, i mean, sumtimes u juz feel tat things happen so fast : for a minute it was there, then it is gone...

Last year, while i was on my way to school, i was thinking : "how long will hav passed in the future when i think back abt now?"

N here i am today, 1 year after tat. Although it's juz one year, looking back at those time i spent, somehow i cant find anything really significant in my life, wat is it tat i seek? Especially when someone like Mr Kumar asks me : "Wat's ur ambition?", this question almost always strikes me speechless, although sometimes i giv an answer, but i always fail to convince myself tat tat is wat i want...

I read books on astronomy, physics, n then i say : "I want to be a astronomer!" When i get back to school n other stuffs start to set in, i start to think : "Wat was tat i wanted to be again?"

Few days later, i read books on comedy n romance, n then i say : "I want to be an author!" n few days later, wow, i am gud at forgetting things!

Throughout these 16 years, i am juz wandering around aimlessly, not knowing my goal, fulfilling my parents' hope. But wat do i really want? i do not know... Perhaps it is best i really workout to find my hope in future...

Annoying stuffs

Ever met with ppl tat r really annoying? Sure enough, yes

Annoying Situation 1:
After a tiring day at school, you are ready to get home as soon as possible to get some rest, the day is extremely warm and humid, you are sweating profusely. On the way home, you are trying to walk as fast as possible, however, the person in front of u is taking his own sweet time walking slowly on a busy track, u tried to cut in front of him, but he is moving in such a way that whatever u do, u wouldnt hav enough space to go through. Slowly, he takes out a cigarette, lights it and took a puff, all the cigarette fume goes right in your face. You are getting near the road, the traffic light turned green for the pedestrians. However, the guy in front of u is still moving at his speed of snail, making u even annoyed.

Annoying situation 2:
You are in deep water becoz of some problems to deal with in school. Assignments, homeworks, uniforms, bla bla bla. You are sitting in front of your computer, cracking your head to find a solution. Suddenly, your phone rings and it happens to be your superior, giving more pressure instead of solution, annoying u to an extent u may just crush your phone and step on it. Now, ur parent come here and starts lecturing u non-stop about homeworks, results, studies, not using computers and stuffs, annoying u even more.

Solution 1:
Kick tat guy's ass, make him move faster, right before he turns back, get the guy by his collar, drag him on the ground, take is cigarette, stuff it inside his nostrils, see how he likes tat. Kick tat guy out of the way, move on.

Solution 2:
Take your phone, throw it out of the window, smash your computer into pieces, tear off ur books, get into ur room, close the door and dun care the hell about anything. On the next day, meet ur superior, stuff his mouth with ur resignation letter, get the hell out of there. XD

Juz joking, really... I where got so violent 1... XD

Really... last time violent ZY gone liao XD

后悔？反省？太迟了......

前几个月，我们五人被选中参加那个什么救伤比赛，为了参加比赛，我们五人练习了大概有3个月...而每次练习总是有人会在那里不停地开玩笑，总是无法认真地做好自己的本分。
我曾经说过，我们练习的时间已经不多了，要他们认真对待这些练习。我说他们没有危机感，不到大难临头之际也不会反省，他们平常不肯认真地去练习，我已经预测他们会在最后一刻找我做垂死的挣扎。
今天，果然被我猜中了，在运动过后其中一个突然问我下个星期可否不去补习，和他们一起练习。我在开始练习的第一天已经表明我不会为了比赛练习不去上课，所以我要他们平常练习时认真一些，以弥补我们缺乏时间的问题。你们平常有时间时练习不肯认真，现在没有时间了，你们就跑过来要我用我的时间来弥补你们的错误？抱歉，我可没那么伟大。你求我？不用可气了，你打我还好，求我就不用了，我不吃这一套。
被我拒绝后，他们竟跑去找团里的前辈，在那儿闹别扭说我不肯和他们练习，然后他们还翻脸说不参加比赛了。搞得那前辈一时慌了，还真的服了他，你管他们放屁，不去不是不去咯，他们还要我去找前辈理论，说我不合作。好哇，好个恶人先告状...这下我可忍无可忍了,你做初一，我做十五！你要在那儿耍赖，我何尝不会呢?前辈告诉我说他们俩不想参加比赛,我便来个接力使力法,我也不去!那俩似乎没料到我会这么说,都呆了.
有些时候你说我不合作，那你有没有想过你之前如何对人呢？
当他人还有心要帮你时,你就应该好好地接受,不要在那儿把别人的努力当成玩笑,
否则,当他人已对你死心时,就算你有多诚恳,多认真也好,不用指望他人会与你合作。

*上面的那个时钟，叫末日钟 （Doomsday clock) 要知道更多，自己上网找...

Hail!

these 2 days training wit mr woo... like hell la... tired like hell... kena 'shoot' like hell... still, quite gud lor. At least we got a bit improvement, got...
training wit kar soon 1 day = okok lar
training wit kar soon 2 days straight = tired
training wit mr woo 1 day = freaking tired
training wit mr woo 2 days straight = hello hell
training wit mr woo really can die... he is having fun torturing us, summore nid me shout like i'm a loudspeaker, a robot, can shout non-stop 1. walau, my throat everyday like tat during competition no nid do liao luu~~
first day training left my wallet n handphone at school (-_-|||) coz really tired la! tired until i oso blur blur ledi, reach kasturi ledi only perasan, haiz... luckily the greatest fren (lol)
[TAN CHIN TIONG] agreed to teman me go back school to take my handphone~ XD if not i oso dunno if i really wan go up school (again!)... all hail chin tiong! hail! hail! XD
at least i helped him exercise a bit~ ppl complain got '啤酒肚' i knew he got drink beer 1, everyday... Hail chin tiong! hail hail!
today training really really really really really freaking tired la, summore kena 'shoot' kaw kaw by mr woo, well, i guess we did do things rather badly... but giving punishment like makan nasi, i drank like 3-4 cans + 1 bottle of 100plus and oso 3 bottles of water, still very thirsty, summore cramp happens really often (curse me left leg!) i think sumting wrong wit my left leg, mayb go check wit doc... or mayb is juz excessive loss of salt! y? sweating mah! next time training wit mr woo i better bring 1 bag of salt juz in case kena cramp again. today reach kasturi late, at least i dun hav to walk~ mr woo fetched us to kasturi so no nid kena rain. reach kasturi still very tired, feel like sleeping, summore whole body pain... body pain nice de, when massage a bit n feel the compression, dunno y but feel nice oso.

Sacrifice

Last friday, YL suddenly said tat he wanted to go for duty instead of training on saturday. Surprised, i told him tat we weren't supposed to take any duty during training period. He then replied tat he had never heard of such thing, well of course he hadnt heard of it! He never pay any attention to watever others are saying! Together with CL, they struck me speechless with their seemingly righteous arguments about being active in duties and they said they wont go for training. Well, when i told mr woo abt tis, hell, i kena 'shoot' kaw kaw. I was like , wtf?! not i dun wan go, it's them! But hell, he wouldn't listen and held me responsible to get them come for training at all cost.
As i tot, YL n CL wouldn't sacrifice their 'precious' duty hour to train, but they still insists that they ARE WILLING TO SACRIFICE THEIR TIME. ya rite... then y wouldnt u come for training?

Novelist Sinclair Lewis was supposed to deliver an hour-long lecture to a group of college students who planned to be writers. Lewis opened his talk with a question:

"How many of you really intend to be writers?"

All hands went up.

"In that case," said Lewis, "my advice to you is to go home and write."

With that, he left. What is word without action?

Exactly, they said they are willing to sacrifice, but they didnt show tat wat they are talking is true. What i say is tat they weren't willing to sacrifice at all. I know i may not be the right person to say tis, but to achieve something, one must sacrifice another thing in return.
They say,
if u hav the will to win, u have already achieved half of ur success.
Well, i say,
if u hav the will to win but not hav the will to sacrifice in return, u r not even on the right track to success.

Tired...

Form 4 now really... freaking tiring, not in sense of my body, but my freaky brain! School, state comp, tuition, extra classes, meetings. Great! I am trying to kill myself. Seems like i m grumbling? ppl working from 9-5, i studying frm 5-6, I luv my life! -_-
Since Mr woo now expect some result from the comp which means we will nid to train way harder than b4... i kno i wan to win, u know victory is somehow sweeter than defeat isnt it? dun tell me no, i kno u r lying... Well, mr woo now considers me as the leader of the team tis year, which giv me hell lots of trouble (really!) now my confidence to win tis year's state comp is totally gone.
Seems tat it isnt really possible to win wit tis team (not to the extent of "impossible" yet) n tis year i was really planning to train khai loon, whom i hope will win the comp (seeing he has three chances up to form 4)
somehow, juz starting to feel tired, dun feel like moving on...

好东西分享

问世间情为何物，
直教生死相许?
天南地北双飞客，
老翅几回寒暑!
欢乐趣，
离别苦，
就中更有痴儿女。
君应有语：
渺万里层云，
千山暮雪，
只影向谁去!
横汾路，
寂寞当年箫鼓，
荒烟依旧平楚。
招魂楚些何嗟及，
山鬼暗啼风雨。
天也妒，未信与，
莺儿燕子俱黄土。
千秋万古，
为留待骚人，
狂歌痛饮，
来访雁丘处。

出自金文学家元好问的《摸鱼儿（问世间情为何物）》

把握当下，恒持刹那

男孩暗恋女孩多年
虽然男孩不曾表白
但女孩清楚知道
男孩的心意
并对他有一样的感觉
年复一年
当年的男孩已成为一名男人
男孩至今无法鼓起勇气
向女孩表白
男孩无奈，随便娶了个女人
女孩至今仍无意
主动上前
女孩无奈，随便嫁了个男人
多年以后
男孩与女孩从新相遇
看见双方的生活
男孩后悔
当年的优柔寡断
女孩后悔
当年裹足不前
双双因为
无法做出抉择
无法摆脱自制的牢笼
失去了该有的幸福。


把握当下，恒持刹那，不要因为一时的猷豫，失去一生的幸福。

特别献给 NSZH, keke...

A different angle...

If friendship is noble, is revenge evil?
If hell is despair, is heaven enjoyable?
If enemies are deadly, are friends harmless?
If life is meaningless, is death more interesting?
If lies are sinful, is the truth more comfortable?
If only strong ones survive, is there a need for the weak ones?
If powerless means evil, does power bring justice?
If beauty is a blessing, is ugliness a curse?
If there is no loser, there won't be a winner.
If there is no death, there won't be life.
If there are no weaker ones, one won't seem to be a stronger one.
if there are no enemies, there won't be allies.
If there is no lie, will there be a space for yourself?
If all are born beautiful, beauty doesn't seem to comply.
If hell cease to exists, heaven doesn't seem so beautiful.


The world is made to be like that, things depend on each other to exists, without one, it isn't necessary for the other to be there. Things may seem to be negative, but think, you wouldn't consider something to be good if the thing that seems to be bad doesn't exist, would you?